These few weeks have been stressful and there is more yet to come. Imagine having an assignment due on Friday and I have yet to start doing it. Plus that with a quiz that will either be held on Thursday or Friday. Meaning my quiz could very well be tomorrow.
But lets not touch on that. I think I'll just surprise you with myself being alive and there to write about it. In this post I want to touch on the days that have come to pass until this very post.
Rain has been consistent these past few days. It actually made Melaka filled with mist. Literally on the road. It was as if I was in Cameron Highlands. In addition to that, the air was cool and the bed so inviting. Natural air-conditioning as one would call it.
As rain comes and goes, so does the sun. The nights have been terribly chilling. Like the freezer of a refrigerator. If tears rolled down a persons cheeks, it would be solid crystal before it reached the cheek.
These droplets of water mean so much. May it be for joy or sadness. Either way it shows truly how the person feels at that particular time. You would have a hard time breathing and your heart feels as though it just ran a 100meter sprint. Your eye sight goes blur and you are unable to stop the tears from flowing.
But after that, you feel as though you have let go of a very heavy object of your chest. You can breath better. You see better. You think clearly. Then comes the mind. What goes on in the mind? Does it keep questioning why the eyes shed tears? How many people noticed this. That although we have let go of such a heavy weight, the mind still keeps thinking of it. Never letting go. How to leave it forever?
Easier said then done. >> Give it time.
Immerse yourself in work or sports to put your mind of it. I belief I can do it. With so much events lined up my belt, not to mention my very own assignments and exams, it would be a miracle NOT to forget the petty stuff that have been clouding my judgement lately. I don't ever think so much on petty things. I just do what I see fit without a care of the world and the consequences. Yet now, I always question "why?" about the small petty things of life. How mind boggling.
A friend once told me.
"Men easily go crazy over a certain person"
I didn't belief that before. Must be my ego kicking in over there. Oh well. Everything has to begin. Also an ending would follow close by. Its just a matter of when does it end. Nothing last forever but it can last till the very end. I think it is up to the individual on how far they are willing to journey. Would it be till the very end or will it just stop at the first sight of an obstacle?
It would take determination and patience to reach the end else you want the ending to catch up with you instead.
I would rather build my future with my own hands rather then depend on someone else to do it for me. Either way, I am glad the way my life turned out. I am stepping forward. At my own pace no less. It really is an accomplishing feeling to see your life plan fall into place. Everything else was just a phase of my life. None the less it would be a memory.
"Paradise doesn't exists, it is built with your own two hands"
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