Poking-Around-Candidly

Coming Soon

2009-09-04T00:02:00.003+08:00

Without a adequate computer and 2 Internet Service Providers, i am resource stricken in editing and molding a respectable blog.

Therefore, COMING SOON: NOV 2009

The revitalization of POC shall officially begin.

With much logged and drafted post such as:-
- Mystery Feelings
- HOW-TO-FIND a room to rent when working in KL
- Adult Adventure
- Days where RM400 is gone in 3 days.
- Why parents are no fun. The truth revealed!
- Bus in KL. Difference of Metro Bus and Rapid KL!
- Tips on Working. (For IT and Accounting personnel)
- Light and Dark thoughts
- Starwars Sega movies
- When you are bored...reading is best for passing time!
- Relationships (To-do or Not-to-do)
- Food (KL and Ipoh)
- TIPS - Choosing internship placements
- *CAUTION* HOW-TO shed your skin like a snake.
- Regrets
- Submitting my Computer for "Rig Of The Month" to www.guru3d.com

Yeah....so an exciting list of titles that i have all crammed into my head and notepads on my computer....

So stay tuned as i continue to poke around for more titles to add to the already long list.

~K5~

Starbright - Quietdrive

2009-03-24T19:28:00.001+08:00

“I just wish that you should know,
I just think that you should know,
That your star is so bright,
I can see your core,
And you light up my life
So i can see more,
I don’t care if you’re lost,
Or if you’re scared,
Or you never, ever
Never, ever wanna be friends”

It has been a long time since my previous post. Some of you who may stumble on this blog once again might just say “Heh he finally updated after 4 months”. Ha ha ha truth be told i was rather busy and although there are many things i have yet to share online i would like to take this opportunity to correspond my thoughts about the song above, especially about the chorus part of the song. I’ll start with my previous stories first to show you how this all connects to the above chorus.

Before i continue, allow me to update about my holidays. My long long passed holidays. It was quiet and hilarious. It cause me to realize how I still take it for granted no matter how many times i go through it. Currently i have taken over 8 holidays.

That's 24 weeks of holidays.

That’s 6 months.

That’s 1/2 a year.

Looking back at it i wonder if i would have done anything differently. HECK NO. But I still have the occasional wish of having it to last longer. My previous post was something about me building a super computer or something like that. That dream has been realized. However, looking back now at my plans i realize that a whole year has passed by. And this jolted my memories of past holidays. The laughter and the joy of orientation as well as some bitter experiences….

As i said, it is all an experience. That’s why life is beautiful. Its short and non-lasting which makes me cherish and appreciate it more then anything. I sense change in myself as i look back into the past. Walking ever closely to graduation and working life. Moving slowly as it may be but eventually it will reach that very destination.

Seeing my counterparts (Form 6 Pursuers) who have just started their life in university makes me want to turn back time. Sometimes i wish i could have spent just a little more time in my high school with them. Go through their laughter, joy, sadness, frustration and many more. But if i did that then i wouldn’t have met these wonderful friends in university. “The Road Not taken” was one of the poems we studied in high school. Now i understood the true meaning it was trying to dictate. Although i looked but didn’t see. I read but didn’t understand.

The true meaning which dictates :-

Live with no Regrets

The things that matter most to me. Pride, Responsibility, Diligence and Honor are all but spent in this ever moving world. I realize that coming into this bigger world has opened my mind to the small tiny world i was encased in all these times. How surprising. That i thought life has opened up when i entered university. How naive to realize life is much much more bigger then just university. That in this true dog eat dog world there is only connections and friends. That true talent is taken from the best of the best. Even above average is ignored. Take a look at the world. Its something that demands we have to take effort to catch and survive. And this is what our parents has been going through…

As we played in the park.

As we laughed in school.

As we studied casually in university.

As we complain how everything isn’t good enough.

All this time they have been patiently guiding us. Smiling to us. Telling us as though everything will be alright. Makes me wonder why go through all this trouble of life. Why put all this effort into such casual thinking fools. Why? It stumped me for awhile. I thought i had the answer which is Love. But i soon realize that it wasn’t the ultimate answer. I soon come to understand that youth diminished from them and they became adults. They once had the same history as me. No matter how different their life’s were. No matter how different their era were.

They are us.
They are your neighbors.
They are your friends.
They are a husband or a wife.
They are the people walking across the street.
They are the singers.
They are the politicians.
They are you.
They are me.

It is the great circle of life that moves on and on. That the reason they put in so much effort is so that we can make these memories. That we may cherish it. But above all else be proud of who we are. Be proud of what we have accomplished in this life. They are proud. They have us to carry forth their memories. Their dreams. Their hope and their love.

Looking at my own feet currently. I ask myself. Should i utter those chorus. Making history. The greatest story of my life. Would i look back someday and regret this day? Would i look at the road not taken. Will i be able to have the honor my parents bestowed upon me? I looked and I see your core. You light up my life but do i light up yours? Can you see more then i do? Do you know how i feel and do you feel the same. Will you write my life as i would yours? So i can taste all the bittersweet times and make this life worth dying for. Or do we just remain friends and sooner or later drift apart further and further away till it becomes naught but a memory………

~K5~

Start Of A Long Journey

2008-10-25T23:36:00.001+08:00

As any sane person would know, to start a journey, one must first get the necessary equipment before actually beginning the journey. Even more so if its a long one.

Introduction:

This journey I mention is one that offers nothing less of danger. Not to mention the mental challenge and culture shock. As of now, I find myself wondering into the abyss. A world which I have evaded for the past 2 years of my life in university. A world so mind boggling it would blow your sanity away, increase your anxiety, multiply my frustration as well as add to my strain. This journey is called:-

"Step into society"

Preparation:

You guessed it. I am now making excuses on why it took such a long time to write anything new in this blog. But hey. This excuse isn't an excuse. Its an EXPLANATION!. So sit down, open your eyes, and read carefully. My life so far in university is one which I choose to live in exclusion. For those who don't get it. (live alone, few friends, etc). You could say I am a social outcast before today. I don't get invitations to go out or have supper or dinner or any invitations that resemble the above. Other then my own course mates cum assignment mates, I hardly know anyone else. The same could be said the other way round. Very few people know me. My objective isn't to be known, it is to score in my exams.

Well I am not boasting or anything here but for the sake of argument lets just say my CGPA is on a level acceptable by myself and my family. :D

Moving on............. Because of the above, I took the next step which is making a small step out of my safety zone. 1 big step for me. HAHAHA. My IPOH friends will now start saying "yeah rite. that's a lie". Well that's because I am not like that in IPOH. So they would hardly belief me. But on the other hand, if you are one of the university students you would know that I speak the truth. I unveil my mask. Allow others to exploit my capabilities. Offer my assistance to total strangers whom don't even know how to appreciate it. Allow myself to once again be a victim of politics. Damn. Even after all precautions I took, it still happens. I guess politics will always exists one way or another. Although in small amounts.

Well not exactly physically tall. Its a metaphor. But I am not giving up just yet. I still have the fire of hope in me. 21 is the age where men stop growing. If my biology subject memory serves me right :D

First step:

I find myself surrounded by more friends. I think its save to say it increased by ten fold. Amazing. It almost feels just like home. And that's where my next problem arises. Because of the long seclusion, I have almost lost all if not all of my people skills. I find myself being more direct, straight forward, oblivious towards the effect of my words and of course oblivious to other peoples feelings. But then again, I have never gave a damn or my 2 cents of thought about what other people feel when it comes to giving my opinion or solution. I'll be frank and not beat the bush because that would be counter productive. It wastes my time and vice verse. But it does seem I still am able to intimidate those above me or so they think they are above me.

Respect is earned, not a given. It must be worked for with sweat and logic. One cannot command respect. One is GIVEN respect. You can't command something which isn't yours to take or even demanded. See the logic? Let me give a simpler version. Its like paying for stuff with your parents money which clearly isn't yours to spend.

Advancements:

I have found a new idol to idolize. His name is George Carlin. He has passed away this year a few months ago. A great comedian who gives his 2 cents of an opinion (controversial and religious alike ) on national TV USA. Now that's a man with guts! Check him out on Youtube!

Also, I have decided to treat myself to a gigantic work station. What....... it has been like 1 whole year since I got a scholarship and might I add that I am doing rather well in my studies. So it just seems right that I treat myself. Now when I say treat myself I mean using the extra sponsored cash which I saved over the year. Yep MY MONEY. Not my parents so I have all the say in it. In fact, since I secured my scholarship my parents have stopped paying for my living expenses. Except of course my apartment rental of course. Other then that, all my food, entertainment, Internet, transport...etc...have all been paid by my money. Just so you know and don't you dare call me a hypocrite.

I think that's enough ranting for now. I'll update about my holiday this semester when I get the free time during the holidays. Which is most unlikely :D

~K5~

Lights

2008-09-02T00:44:00.001+08:00

Bright lights,

From a star,

Light up the night sky,

It rids,

The loneliness,

Of the night.

The moon sits,

By itself,

Night after night,

Only to wait.

For the time,

Night turns to day,

To see the first rays,

Of sun light,

With the star.

Hand in hand,

Night after night,

Day after day,

Year after year,

Still hand in hand.

And that is my wish,

That I may sit here,

With you,

Hand in hand,

To embrace,

Each day.

For your smile,

Is brighter then any,

Of the star lights,

In the night sky.

In the darkest of nights,

You shine my way.

And I won’t get lost,

Or lose my way,

I lose myself,

When I look into your eyes,

Because,

I see my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

Rain and Tears

2008-08-13T23:36:00.001+08:00

These few weeks have been stressful and there is more yet to come. Imagine having an assignment due on Friday and I have yet to start doing it. Plus that with a quiz that will either be held on Thursday or Friday. Meaning my quiz could very well be tomorrow.

But lets not touch on that. I think I'll just surprise you with myself being alive and there to write about it. In this post I want to touch on the days that have come to pass until this very post.

Rain has been consistent these past few days. It actually made Melaka filled with mist. Literally on the road. It was as if I was in Cameron Highlands. In addition to that, the air was cool and the bed so inviting. Natural air-conditioning as one would call it.

As rain comes and goes, so does the sun. The nights have been terribly chilling. Like the freezer of a refrigerator. If tears rolled down a persons cheeks, it would be solid crystal before it reached the cheek.

These droplets of water mean so much. May it be for joy or sadness. Either way it shows truly how the person feels at that particular time. You would have a hard time breathing and your heart feels as though it just ran a 100meter sprint. Your eye sight goes blur and you are unable to stop the tears from flowing.

But after that, you feel as though you have let go of a very heavy object of your chest. You can breath better. You see better. You think clearly. Then comes the mind. What goes on in the mind? Does it keep questioning why the eyes shed tears? How many people noticed this. That although we have let go of such a heavy weight, the mind still keeps thinking of it. Never letting go. How to leave it forever?

Easier said then done. >> Give it time.

Immerse yourself in work or sports to put your mind of it. I belief I can do it. With so much events lined up my belt, not to mention my very own assignments and exams, it would be a miracle NOT to forget the petty stuff that have been clouding my judgement lately. I don't ever think so much on petty things. I just do what I see fit without a care of the world and the consequences. Yet now, I always question "why?" about the small petty things of life. How mind boggling.

A friend once told me.

"Men easily go crazy over a certain person"

I didn't belief that before. Must be my ego kicking in over there. Oh well. Everything has to begin. Also an ending would follow close by. Its just a matter of when does it end. Nothing last forever but it can last till the very end. I think it is up to the individual on how far they are willing to journey. Would it be till the very end or will it just stop at the first sight of an obstacle?

It would take determination and patience to reach the end else you want the ending to catch up with you instead.

I would rather build my future with my own hands rather then depend on someone else to do it for me. Either way, I am glad the way my life turned out. I am stepping forward. At my own pace no less. It really is an accomplishing feeling to see your life plan fall into place. Everything else was just a phase of my life. None the less it would be a memory.

"Paradise doesn't exists, it is built with your own two hands"

You'll Never Shake Me

2008-08-04T02:50:00.001+08:00

There are many days,

Each day a mystery lay,

As I lay,

Waiting for it to play,

My heart beats alone,

Waiting for this day,

To come play,

My other piece.

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The day arrives,

Bringing my other half,

To meet my own half,

Alone we beat separately,

Together we beat as one,

It seemed everlasting,

That we would always be together.

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As free as a dove,

You want to be free,

So I let you fly,

Cause in the end,

Deep in my heart,

You'll always be apart of me,

I'm a part of you indefinitely,

You cant escape me,

Time can't erase our memory,

You'll never shake me.

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If you want to leave,

I won't hide,

I won't cry,

Cause I never want

To see you sad,

I want to see you smile,

And laugh,

So I won't beg you to stay,

I won't block your way,

Cause in the end,

You'll be back again,

Time can't erase,

This feeling so secure,

You'll never shake me.

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Although I may be new,

I am blind,

But I can hear,

So I know,

That you'll be back girl,

When your day and nights,

Get a little to quiet,

I know that you'll be back,

Belief me,

It's only a matter my time.

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You break my heart,

Endless pain,

And yet it heals,

You'll always be a part of me,

I'm part of you indefinitely,

I cant escape you,

No way you're never going to shake me,

You'll always be my baby.

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We'll remain,

Together as one,

Sooner or later cause,

You'll always be a part of me,

I'm a part of you indefinitely,

Girl don't you know you can't run from me

and we will hang on,

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No way you're never going to shake me,

Our feeling will never,

take it's last breath,

Time can't erase a feeling so solid,

You won't shake me away,

Cause you know in your heart,

That I'll always be a part of you,

You are part of me indefinitely,

You know you can't escape me,

You'll always be my baby.

~K5~

Inspired from the song: ALWAYS BE MY BABY

David Cook

After Much Thought

2008-07-20T16:08:00.001+08:00

Life is indeed full of surprises. I personally think that without surprises, life would be boring and predictable. With that being said, there is no doubt that hope is the greatest weapon man could ever hope for. Hope in all its glory does not give guarantee. It gives man the will to move on, to hold on, to endure, to live, to survive and most of all to never give up.

It is my personal opinion that hope or wishful thinking can make man unpredictable. For even the dumbest of them would surprise you with the little ounce of hope he clings on too. The extra distance that he is able to cover, the pain he is able to endure, the loneliness and sadness he can withstand is all a miracle just with a little hope at his side.

Men's hope should be feared. Its really amazing how something without shape and size can make the biggest difference in the future. It has always been questioned why would the person do this, why would the person do that, why would he sacrifice and etc. And the answer is very simple.

" Hope"

It brings about courage and determination in the darkest hour.

Stubbornness and strength in difficult times.

Honor with principles when all others corrupt.

Right and wrong when blind.

Good and evil when suppressed.

It leads men to do even the most evil of things. That's why friends and families are needed to advice and give a different kind of hope to the person. In the hope that he doesn't run astray or do anything stupid.

Sometimes because he isn't knowledgeable or was blinded by emotion.

Sometimes its caused by his inability to convey his emotions to the other.

Or maybe its because he just worries too much. Not about himself but about the other.

And when you worry to much, you tend to act on the basis that you think its the best for both. But soon realize that you don't have that right to choose what's best as the other also has a say in this. It leads towards selfishness and regret

It is for the best that next time before I act, I should put myself in the others shoes first to assure that the message gets across. Misunderstandings are such a pain in the ass.

And recently it has:-

ADDED to my misery,

DIVIDE my attention,

SUBTRACT from my pleasure and

MULTIPLY like crazy.

It is about time I stopped this madness and clear the air.

And I hope I finally succeed in doing so. But I need your help as well to keep this hope that I am holding on.

To ensure that my grasp does not waver.

To ensure that it doesn't fall.

To ensure that the 'hope' I hold on to does not change one single bit.

That the strength that I put into it never reduce but increase instead.

All that I hope for is that we built this hope together.

And put the past behind us.

Can it be done? I hope it can.

"Let the bud become a flower before plucking it"

The Past Two Months

2008-07-15T01:58:00.001+08:00

This post, I think, will be be longest that I would have ever written. The story starts on a clear Tuesday morning. It was the 3rd of June of the year 2008. It was an odd feeling to be going back to university so early. I usually have a 3 week holiday but this time it has been cut short to 1 week and 3 days. Why? Because this year I joined the orientation committee for the new intake students for the term 2008/2009. This is the account of my mix feelings during this one special occasion.

I reached my apartment very well of the estimated schedule. As usual my parents fetch me back to MELAKA only this time with the exception of Mun Hou since he didn't join the committee. Anyway, the time was 12pm and as I was unpacking my food supply with the help of my parents from the car, a strange breeze blew at us. I had a feeling that this semester would be different. I didn't know what would be different but I shudder to even think it. The winds of change as sailors would call it.

I met Sam in the apartment. Damn! He reached before I did. Again. Oh what the hell. The guy lives in Negri Sembilan. Very much closer to Melaka then I'll ever be. After unloading my stuff and had a quick lunch with my parents, I bid farewell to my parents and we ( me and Sam) started to clean up the room. Oh crap. I forgot to mention I cut my extremely long hair. Here is the difference. =)

Yes Yes its very much shorter. I am always stuck between these choices. Long or short. Long or short. Agh. I said screw it. Fuel price is going to increase so I had better cut my hair short so I wont need to cut my hair again till next year. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Cheap skate right?

Ho ho ho. Lets see you jump with joy when you pay your hair dresser now. Even my Dobi service increase RM0.50 to their original price. Imagine my shock when I received my invoice. Haiz. It totally sucks. Why is our country, a freaking producer of Oil charging so much to its people. It doesn't make sense. Its like buying the product from another country. It SHOULD BE CHEAP.

Even Thailand's people are buying our petrol oil. The person running the economy of my country must be drunk or he mistakenly signed some agreement papers.

Anyway, back to my story. The orientation Committee camp.

CHAPTER 1: Experience!

Objective: To freaking tighten our bonds of friendship. And I have to admit that it worked. My social network expended. By a lot. I now have friends from other faculties and other Years. This is new to me since I have only focus on my studies up till now. I told myself everything has its place and time. My scholarship procurement is much more important then making lots and lots of friends. So since I already secured that, I guess the next thing would be to expend my network.

1. -> OC Camp ( Red Team ) at Taman Botanical. Day 1

2. ->OC Camp ( Red Team ) at Exam Hall. Day 2

3. ->OC Camp ( Red Team ) at main field.

Football match. Short vs Tall

Day 3

3. ->Registration Day! At SRC room.

At main hall giving out the free bags. =)

4. ->Orientation Day 1.

5. ->Orientation Day 2.

5. ->Orientation Day 3.

6. ->Orientation Day 4. (Last Day. Most likely the reason for excess of photos! hahahahahha)

Finally. At the month of June the year 2008 I experienced being an Orientation Committee mobile division heading the group Yellow 2.

It was truly a great experience. I made tons of new friends. I realize that my life in university has just started. Some of my friends said I have changed. I assure you I am still the same old person. Oh and I am regarded as young in orientation. Some even say I look like 15. OMG. 15??? And I'm in university? Come on!! Even if you were to guess it would be 17 or 18. Because if I were to enter university at the age of 15, I would be on the news! Or maybe not.

I belief that pictures mean a thousand words. The pictures it self tells about chapter 1 of this post. I think the right word to label it would be HAPPY.

In fact, I even returned from orientation with some new attention. I guess it now comes to chapter 2 of my experience. Chapter 1

CHAPTER 2: Cause! Effect! Conclusion!

The cause.

I will never know what truly caused this. It was a weird sensation. I never had attention before in all my life. At least not any from the opposite sex. You can say I got carried away by it. Sort of like addiction to drugs and cigarettes. I never did open up to my course mates. They know so little about me. I don't know weather they drew their own conclusion about me in the end. But it doesn't really matter. I never did care what others thought of me. Or even cared to judge me before knowing me. My actions so far came with reason. I found no reason to let others know about me. And when I joined orientation, I realize that I now have reason to open up. Not to get attention. But the job prescribed me to be friendly and helpful. Traits that I safely kept hidden so that I could focus on studies.

Since I already got what I want, I decided to make university life a memorable one. I decided to show what I am capable of. The result?

The effect: Friends and more.

I got carried away. I was addicted to it. And as such I took it for granted. I have never took things for granted and yet now I have. Every precaution taken to avoid this from happening just dropped and collapsed. I never knew that my "wall" was so fragile. It crumbled to dust and ruin as I type this.

The irony is I knew the effects of addiction. Once its taken from you, you seem to lose all meaning to life. You cant live without it and cant bare to live apart from it. Why is it so? Addiction is truly powerful. Knowing that, I took the great leap of awakening. And tried to destroy my lust for it. I guess the bible was right. Lust is a sin. My cravings for it has still not subsided.

I knew the effects of my actions. It would most probably kill and break the drug. But like all drugs it still lingers in the public.

Taunting me.

Tempting me.

Teasing me.

Some times my mind is clear of it. And most times, I am addicted to even a faint scent of it. I try to rid myself of it. And as miracle would have it, the drug itself is being subdued. I do not know why its actions are so or how it happened.

CONCLUSION: The final word.

I decide on choices.

Linger on in this fantasy? Or sleep it off hoping that when I wake up the next morning it is all a dream.

Do I curse that it ever happened? Or do I cherish the memory and close this chapter......

Or maybe I should continue to write this story and bring it to another chapter of my life. I feel numb. I feel empty at times. Its as though my old life was a total bore compared to the rush and anxiety of these past few months. I expected it to come. I just never thought it would be possible. So I never did plan my actions. It was all spontaneous. I knew it wont last long. So I decided to break the bond. It didn't know me and vice versa. My principles of life. My complexity. My every reason for action. My expectations. My likes and dislikes. And neither did I know the latter. It was as though seeing my old wall. So hard to break. So hard to cross. Why did I ever let mine fall I wonder.

So what do I do now?

Endure it?

Or subdue it?

I may have been blind but I am not deaf. I hear clearly the voice screaming in my head. Telling me to do what I should have done a long time ago. I can feel the difference. And yet I hold on. Why?

"You never know what you have till you lose it."

It must be this very reason that I fear losing it a second time and regretting it. Hold on as long as I can. Knowing myself I would hold on till the drug itself dies or is completely extinct.

Does it deserve such honor from me. Does it deserve such loyalty. Its being trampled with. Taking me for granted would be its undoing. And it would be mine as well. In fact, I am already feeling the burns of my own actions. Maybe that too is the reason I am willing to jump hoops. But please. If the fire has already burned out let me stop acting foolish. I know myself. That I would never stop till I am sure it has been extinguished.

This can't go on forever. I'll give it one more week before I rebuild my solid wall.

1 week! As I stare into the deep night sky, I wonder if I truly can let go. Only time will tell. But either way. I was and still am happy that this all happened. My life wouldn't have been so full of color without your presence. And for that I thank you for even you would take notice of a person like me. Even though it was just for a short time period. But it would be better this way as I can't endure anymore of your avoidance. You must understand. You would not have known me if I decide to let go. I am trying to spare us both that misery.

The ending of the chapter. The start of a new.

2008-07-15T01:10:00.001+08:00

It was indeed a busy last few days for me as I hurried to make my most probably last few memories with my friends before they leave for their university. Yeah they all ( most of them anyway) took form 6. I have planned a steamboat outing with whoever could attend. Although it was not the complete gang but hey I am happy that at least 1/3 of them showed up. Here are a few picks of us.

It was truly day to remember. Mostly because I knew that when I came back for my next semester break, I wont be able to see them anymore. It was ironic that I choose this very same restaurant since this is where I held my farewell to Multimedia University. And now it will serve as their farewell instead. I'm going to miss them all. IPOH will be a lot less quiet the next time I return.

The End Of The BETA chapter

2008-05-30T06:05:00.001+08:00

This day, well actually it isn't this day per say, it was a few days ago. Approximately a week ago on the fine evening of the 23rd of May 2008, Friday marks the ending of my first year in my degree course. Time flies so fast as I think back of the road which I and many others have walked. It feels even worse when I see others walking it as I even type this chapter now.

Now as I look back and wonder on the past I come to realize that I would not have done anything different if I was given a second go at the road. No regrets whatsoever. Besides the fact I could have done better in my SPM exams. Ha ha ha ha.

Ah yes. Those were the days when I remember my parents telling me to study hard so that I will get some sort of reward after. At that time I realize that after the SPM exams I would walk a brand new road. The road I am currently on as I type this. I spent my time as best I could telling myself that this history I am about to make is worth it.

Little did I know that if I had spent more time on my studies then I did with making memories which I have now, I would be in Singapore studying in one of its prestigious universities. Now that I mention it, if I were to have done so I would not have met my friends in MMU and would not have these new memories.

My point is, I choose this. Nobody forced it on me. Though I would like to mention that if I knew A-levels are equivalent to STPM I would have taken it. Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Oh well, that would be a road I shall never know as I would never be able to move down that path any longer.

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Back to the topic anyway. The 23rd marks the end of my first year and I am glad to announce that I have another 2 years to go before I graduate.

Still I wonder if I would choose to further my studies or make my career with the government. The world is changing.

For the first time in Malaysian Voting the opposition has held half the parliamentary seats. Dr M has resigned from the UMNO group and disasters are befalling our neighboring countries. With that in mind, I find it crucial that I give thanks to whoever that controls peace of nature that it has not chosen to apply its wrath on Malaysia.

Yet as I mention this, time has flown in such a way that one would not realize it.

Such as the way a breeze blows suddenly and stops just as abruptly. Such as the first stage of a ripple in the water continued by other stages that you didn't realize that the first ripple had long gone and passed.

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It was a freaky and boring time as I waited for my bus to arrive and fetch me to Pudu Bus Station. It seems a traffic jam has occurred on the route to Melaka or rather towards the south.

So as the clock strikes 1.30pm and the Bus arrives, I tried to board the bus only to be told that passengers with the 1pm bus ticket can only board this bus.

I feel the pain and anger of these unlucky folks. My bus (1.30pm) arrived at 1.45pm. And only reached KL at 4.45pm.

As expected since I knew what I was putting myself through for choosing to take the afternoon ride instead of the early bird.

I hurried to the Transnasional ticket counter in Pudu Bas Station to buy a ride back to Ipoh only to find in horror that I was unlucky. It was selling the 6pm ride.

Oh well. I am not rushing anyway though I do have friends awaiting my return. Ha ha ha ha.

But I already knew I would only be allowed out of the house after a decent meal with my family and they have gone to bed.

That basically means I can only go out after 12am when they have slept. No I am not sneaking out. Its a privilege I earned for not lying to my parents.

See..... being truthful in my youth has its benefits in the future. I get to be fully responsible earlier in my youth which means more freedom then most of my peers who still have curfews.

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I would love to mention what I did in Ipoh as I only have till Thursday, 4th of June at which time I will have to return to University.

I was a successful candidate in the orientation committee interviews which now requires me to sacrifice 2 weeks of my holiday for preparations for the new intake.

Here is the account of those few memorable days which have passed in such a short time span of my already short holiday. (curses!! this post has mention the word "short" one to many times.)

Saturday:

Trip home took 9 hours. Had dinner with my family and chat with Benjamin at 11pm till (sorry I forgot what time we stopped)

(FOOD: Dried Cooked Chicken)

Sunday:

Met up with Benjamin for jogging in the afternoon and had dinner together with him, Guo Zheng, Sen Loong and his brother.

(FOOD: Taugeh Ayam Bercham)

Monday:

Benjamin, Jason, Daniel and Samuel met up for lunch at around 4pm. It was a late lunch and Jason almost fainted. Dinner with my family later on.

(FOOD: Taugeh Ayam Town, Wantan Mee)

Tuesday:

Met with Jason, Samuel and Mun Hoe at 12pm to have the biggest, juiciest and cheapest fried fish meat and noodles located in Pasir Pinji.

It was quite a drive as all passengers were sweating it out during the journey. My car's aircond is still not working up to standards.

After that we decided to go to Jusco to check out the new changes and feel the cool air. Daniel joined us later on in the evening and we had the greatest donuts.

Yes you got it right.

No its not Dunkin Donuts.

Its Big Apple Donuts. YESSSS!!!! Jusco Ipoh has a Big Apple Donuts Outlet.

Now all its missing is TGI Fridays, Manhattan Fish Market and etc. Later at 8pm I had dinner with my relatives and joined Vincent and Yoke Teng for supper.

Its just chatting over some long awaited ais kacang. Not toooooo sweet and yet not at all tasteless that I cant tell the difference between each ingredient.

Played Dota in a cybercafe till 5am.

(FOOD: Fish Cakes, Donuts, 8 course Chinese restaurant meal, Ais Kacang )

Wednesday:

Lunch with Sen Loong, Jason, Nicolas and Samuel at 12pm. Since Sen Loong had to go off to work after 2 hours of chatting the rest of us decided to hang out at my room.

At night, around 8.30pm Livendren, Daniel, Sen Loong, His brother, Benjamin and Chee Hoe met up at Mc Donald's to once again have mindless chatter. We chatted till 1am and parted our own ways.

(FOOD:Noodles and Cheese Burgers)

Thursday:

Benjamin, Sen Loong, Jason, Nicholas, Samuel and Daniel went to jog once again. Actually I and Benjamin just walked. We did some exercises with some of the parks equipment and walked/jogged/skipped for 3 to 4 rounds.

Daniel left soon after that since he had to eat dinner with his family. We were joined later on with Jian Yao and Chee Hoe to have dinner. The food was great and cheap.

Later on after that we were joined with Sen Loong to have Big Apple Donuts in Jusco. He soon left us to fetch his brother. The rest of the group proceeded to have drinks at Old Town Kopitiam.

Over there we chatted till 1am or so.

(FOOD: Noodles, Taugeh Ayam Town, Donuts LOTS AND LOTS OF DONUTS)

Well I guess that completes my adventure that I have been so silent about for the past few weeks. I left out the studying part of the exams as well as the adventure of the exam itself. However, I'm sure you'll understand as the saying goes.................

"A chef never reveals his recipe"

Until my next adventure ciouzzz.

Religious and Glorious

2008-04-28T05:38:00.002+08:00

Life as it seems is ultimately useless without faith and religion to some people. Is this true?Isn't 'hope' enough? Does one need to be religious in order to be 'glorious'? Does all your success belong to an almighty power and HIS 'will'? Does that also mean that all your failures is also that of HIS 'will'? Well of course if you want to glorify your achievements with HIS name then it should also work the other way and vice versa.

Unfortunately, some dismisses failures as our own or somebody's fault. Then that should also mean that our glory belong to us and we should take full credit for our work. Nobody should say "It was luck or gods 'will' that we succeed" so candidly but at an instant blames others or themselves when they fail. Such convenience! Is god just there to give you luck and success? Never to punish? Does your every selfish action not account up to his wrath on you for your very own undoing? Thus it is half true that you should fail at HIS 'will' but mostly because of your very own stupid and selfish actions! And because they do not wish to taint HIS name with their failure they casually blame it on others or themselves.

Basically as a summary of my whole twisting of words is as follows:-

You are responsible for your actions and not GOD
God in my view shows you the DOOR. But you choose and open it. So it is your own actions. Its like being given a gun and you either squeeze the trigger or lay it aside. Are you going to say it was god's 'will' that the gun was shot or it was HIS 'will' that you lay down the gun?
All your actions does not only effect you but everyone around you as a whole. So stop thinking if you choose to do as you like, others will not be affected since it is your own personal stuff. But get this, your personal stuff that you put ahead is connected to your obligations to your friends. So start thinking about others as they DO NOT SHARE the same thinking of "Time will be granted to us whenever we WANT IT!"

Yeah that's about it. As layman in term as I can ever express it in. If you don't understand then you have not done this to your peers or friends. But if you are aware then think about your actions.

P.S: I'm an atheists (free thinker)

And hell no that does not make me any less religious or BLESSED. I do not belief in the word of GOD written by MEN. As MAN is so easily tainted and misled by greed and corruption. And what better way to rule the minds of the gullible in misconception of religion. Some even said in defense of what they belief in "If it was a lie, do you think it can last for that long over centuries?" My counter to that: "The great pyramids were built by MEN and its still very well standing!" MEN are as great, religious and scheming as they come. Its even more so now in this era where thirst for knowledge and power is at its peak.

MEN do not like to be told that they are stupid! They do not like to be told that they are upholding LIES! They detest the fact that they were LIED to for SO LONG, even at the mere possibility of it. Even when evidence is shown right before their eyes. CORRUPTION is MEN made, it wasn't the devil or evil spirits. Its a culture in us HUMANS as we too are still animals to some extent. And the alpha male refuses to let go without a fight. But as you know ANIMALS are more straight forward. We are somewhat smarter. Like hunters say: The most challenging hunt is a human.

Its not because I'm unlucky at all or I'm feeling hot tempered at the moment but because its just my way of seeing wrong and right. You have two legs. Walk forward on your own. God is just a guidance and not the entity that grants wishes or miracles or luck. That sounds cheap. Glory comes from within. Religion guides you to that road. It does not build the road or stray you away dangers. It equips you with the knowledge to do that YOURSELVES. And hell if its going to cure your friends who get caught in the fire. Are you really that selfish? Willing to save only yourself with your religion and sacrificing others for your own save passage. Are your other friends who belief differently, condemned to the depths of hatred and death? What god wishes that onto his creation who has done nothing wrong. Although they do not belief, they are unconsciously following most of HIS word in the good book and that should be enough. A god that wishes to be praised and worshiped is nothing more then human ego created to rule over MEN in the centuries long ago, which in any case shouldn't be in a god as he is suppose to be the light and sign of goodness. Remember that even Jesus disallowed an old lady to kneel before him. That HE ate with his friends and slept with them. HE did not see himself as a greater being. THUS no EGO. Unless even gods, as stated in GREECE, have their bad sides. Which in any case gives more reason that we should not, NEVER follow them blindly!

Yes I have gone out of topic from the title of this blog....

But it is vital to explain how I feel and belief to my friend Jesse. Jesse is my coursemate, housemate, and friend. And quite frankly he can piss me of with his attitude. Not as bad as stated above but around there. Around the minimum level because he is a smart boy. He just needs to get his priorities in order. And because he is smart he is able to deliver correct answers to me that is near perfect or otherwise. Unfortunately he also forces me to stay up late during the last hour and give's be high blood pressure when he takes it so easily when the dateline is only 12 hours away. He can actually sleep at that time with a reasoning that my brain cant work because its out of juice. Why is it out of juice? I dare you to blame the church activities for burning up all your calories and power. Its a fact that he will never admit sadly. Other then that he is somewhat reliable. Only engage when needed. Other then that its faster if I do it myself. Ha HA HA. Ladies and gents of the cyber world, I introduce to you................(drumroll)....JESSE OOI..

He colored his hair red thinking it wont turn out to be so red-ish. Makes any sense to you? Not at all to me since I did emphasize the word RED when he choose the color. I might change the picture on his request because this is the only current picture I have of him at the year 2008.

Nuts, Crazy, & Ingenious

2008-04-17T01:54:00.001+08:00

Life is as nuts as any university student can imagine. Exams and assignment datelines on the same freaking day. In this case, would you not call this insane? This post is in honor of another friend of whom I had the pleasure and chance of meeting. She...yes she is a she.....is one unique girl anyone would feel lucky to have ever met. Her name is Jo Anne. Miss Phuan Jo Anne. You guessed it alright. Her nickname in an instant that I derived was "PUAN".

"Puan" is a Malaysian word for madam.

Anyway, that's the first thing that popped into my head. No offence Jo. ha ha ha. Then names such as Joe, Joey and the like started popping out of my mind. Finally I just stuck with Jo. She is a very helpful friend, willing to share information anytime. Besides the fact that she is full of substance, she is as tough headed as a rock.

When I first met her, it was in a tutor class room that we were about to have our first class in a university. Guess what class it is.

ENGLISH. Freaking English. Oh well I rather take that than Bahasa Melayu.

So she walks in to class. I took no notice of her and went about wondering about the first day of university. Then our English lecturer walks in, Madam Tengku (she is royalty), greets us and ask us to introduce our selves. Ha ha ha ha. My first thought was " Its no different then high school. "

When it reached her turn to introduce herself, she actually caught my attention as the fluency of her language is top notch. Hmm I actually might have someone I can have a deep discussion on things. Much to my delight she is also very well informed of the latest happenings in the entertainment industry as well as the university I'm in. Must be because her sister studied here too. Runs in the family I guess.

Lots of information and the way this university is run was very much cleared by her. Thanks so much!!! I would have been lost by now if it weren't for you. Take for instance, when we need to register our next course and make our own time table in BETA year.

But enough of all that. How is she a slacker you must be wondering by now. Lets see now, she has great time management. Everything just falls right on time. Now if I were to see her plans for the week I would faint or rather ask how can you manage your other work. This plan is NUTS. NUTS. NUTS. NUTS. She is as busy as an ant. Taking an extra language paper on an already packed semester. Nuts!

I did tell her she is CRAZY. Ironically she said so her self too!

" I'm going crazy ahhhhh!!"

(If you are reading this Jo don't tell me you don't recognize your own dialog. )

Proclaimed crazy by herself eh. What more can I say. I thought this girl has guts to pack her schedule and heck she knows its crazy. My expectations on her score was not very high. I ranged her between 3.0 to 3.5. Why? Well, seeing her so tired and rushing here and there and not to mention juggling club activities I thought it would hammer here academic performance.

Final exam comes!

She looks like a dead stick if you asked me. Like a tiny twig hanging by the branch of a dying tree being swayed by harsh winds called final exams. I pitied her really. But I also told myself if she can pull it off she is really wonder woman. AND she is a year younger than me. I'll be damned. Really respect such performance and planing.

Results appear!

A whooping 3.70. I think but its still a first class. INGENIUS!

Totally unmistakable genius. Now is that not quality performance!? Totally awed. Too bad she wont be staying in Malaysia any longer than she can help it. Yep. . . she is a Japanese culture lover. So once she gets the chance, she is off. Imagine if she got together with a Japanese guy. They will be little Jo's running around. But currently she has a boyfriend. That's it for female candidate number 1.

Now that I have introduced the supporting towers, I shall move on to more unique fries. Those two I mention earlier are perfect. Perfect geniuses. Want me to harvest them? ha ha ha I doubt any price you offer me is going to cut a deal. Look out for male candidate No 2 in my next post.

Acknowledgements and Introduction

2008-04-08T23:22:00.004+08:00

After 1 month of pondering the meaning of blogging and testing out a few approaches I have finally found my calling (so to speak. It sounds like enlightenment ). As I thought, even the previous title of my blog was taken directly from the word Piece Of Crap ( POC) made famous by none other than Mr Su Tze Wei of Penang, Malaysia but declares his second home Kuala Lumpur. For those who know him, we are all familiar that he is a slacker and a rich bas*&*d. Seriously rich. The guy watches NFL on a freaking 60 inch Plasma wide screen TV in a room specially set up as a TV room complete with 6ch surround system. Back to my thought. It finally took shape as I thought it would. To write about my friends in university. The various types of personalities I encounter as well as unique ways of living one's life.

ha ha ha ha

(I'm jealous)

For those who don't know him, allow me to introduce him to you all. First of all, he isn't your typical Chinese, city, student, guy and friend. Allow me to explain. This dude goes to KL for fun or for a movie which he can clearly get in any local cinemas every week. His friends in Penang don't often do this with him because of the limited sum of cash. Thus, when he finally found friends who can/have the cash to spare or are just as nuts as himself, it has became a norm to go KL every week for leisure and fun. Anyway, that'll give you an idea of what a fun guy he is to be around with. Still it does not show any indication that he is a slacker! Don't blow steam up your readers arse!

Patience. . .I have to introduce the person first before I jump into his dark side. Now I shall go into detail. His record is as follows:-

1. Assignments dateline tomorrow. Do it 24 hours before dateline.

2. Homework due tomorrow. Screw lunch and finishes it.

3. Lecture's are being conducted in class. Takes out ear plugs and plays music with a handphone through out the lecture. With practically nothing on the table. I do ask him why he brings a bag to class.

4. Exams looming in 10 hours time. Rockin with music, complete with coffee mug in hand. (contents unknown) Progress on studies = 0%.

54. Roommate studying like mad looks at him, shakes head, continues studying.

6. Receives results. . . . . . 4 flat. I SHYT YOU NOT. CGPA 4.0

So, do you agree with me that he is the ultimate harvest in my flock? He is my best product to date. But there is another promising person who might just do as well as him.

Now onto my next topic, the title. POC.

Piece of Crap. Usually directed at me since I like to talk crap (jokes, non-sensible issues, his life style, ethics, etc). One day when exams are looming and we ask each other how's the progress and he states casually that he hasn't started. .(6 hours left). . . we all said "you piece of crap. Can you at least act like you studied? Gosh, you make it look so simple at times. Damn."

And on result day (exam results released), when we ask how we all did, and when he told us after much harassing from our part that he got an A+ we all shouted " YOU PIECE OF CRAP!" basically we called him a slice of shyt. After saying that, a huge bundle of madness and agony just swept/ lifted from our mind.

Some say that he really is a genius. A born living genius! I say he just understood what the book was describing after a first glance. Meaning he has beyond average understanding skills. Gosh I wished I had one of those. Ah yes and also a great big infinite size of memory allocated for temporary storage in god knows where in his mind. (Nope he doesn't remember what he studied after the exam).

Anyway, cheers to my friend SuSu (milk) who is currently doing his degree and maintaining a whooping CGPA of 3.98 to date. Amazing person. I want him to work for me. ha ha ha. In fact, looking at his achievements makes me want to do better myself. So dear reader, if you encounter a unique person such as my friend over here, do not feel that you are stupid or incapable but motivate yourself to do better so that you can walk proud and head held high among your peers. Did I mention he was humble and didn't care much about marks? Oh yeah, he LOVES coffee from COFFEEBEAN and STARBUCKS and the occasional CALIFORNIA COFFEE found only in the midst of the glorious town of KUALA LUMPUR. (I think. after all I did only see the outlet in KL,Malaysia)